Today and Yesterday

This day is lingering, ever lingering...
Everyday is passing...
Like a cold dark dream...
Something I cannot seem....
My past is demeaning, ever demeaning...
Hoping for a positive future with no end...
This depression tries everyday to descend, descend...
I need to move it to a place I cannot comprehend again...
I am forever dreaming, always dreaming....
for an end to all negativity...
I am wishing, again wishing...
for my depressions end...
© Rev. JP Vampyrian

A positive change...

Today is a new day and its time for a change...
My past full of depression, Anxiety with in...
Nothing but aggression, Time for me to win...
No more living for myself...
No more giving in...
Its time for a positive change...
Time to rearrange...
It is time to give up old habits...
Its time for this old dog to change its tune...
No more oppressive doom...
© Rev. JP Vampyrian

New Years resolution...

New Years resolution I have not been doing well this month and must make some changes. Recently I had a break though and this time I am going to stop being so negative and focus on the positive. Its been a difficult change so far But I must heal and take care of myself. I just got out of the hospital Saturday and am doing well now just has a stomach sickness. I have been volunteering most of the week and it is my pleasure to make things better and if any one needs help with anything or you know of places that need volunteering please let me know. I pledge to write and draw again as well as to do more volunteering and helping other any way I can. I hope to get more involved in my art and writing by getting rid of this writers block...

What is the Goth Industrial Scene & Music?

This debate has been around way too long however most of us believe we know the answer. In the beginning there was Rock, metal, to alternative but in or beginning there was punk. Punk came around in the late 60's to 70's and is still around but all music evolves and changes but todays punks is nothing like the beginning but opened the doors to post punks and power pop. Back in the 80's punk opened the doors to a more artsy version of itself known as Goth Rock and Death Rock then came electronic Goth to what we call Industrial but its beginning is way more complicated. Way back during the industrial Revolution The Art of Noises (Italian: L'arte dei Rumori) was a Futurist manifesto, written by Luigi Russolo in a 1913 letter to friend and Futurist composer Francesco Balilla Pratella talked about the evolution of sound. He notes that the earliest "music" was very simplistic and was created with very simple instruments, and that many early civilizations considered the secrets of music sacred and reserved it for rites and rituals. Russolo compares the evolution of music to the multiplication of machinery, pointing out that our once desolate sound environment has become increasingly filled with the noise of machines, encouraging musicians to create a more "complicated polyphony" in order to provoke emotion and stir our sensibilities. He notes that music has been developing towards a more complicated polyphony by seeking greater variety in timbres and tone colors. Russolo explains how "musical sound is too limited in its variety of timbres." He breaks the timbres of an orchestra down into four basic categories: bowed instruments, metal winds, wood winds, and percussion. He says that we must "break out of this limited circle of sound and conquer the infinite variety of noise-sounds," and that technology would allow us to manipulate noises in ways that could not have been done with earlier instruments.

During the industrial revolution music was created with Industrial equipment and todays Industrial is nothing like the original industrial back in the 70s's or so with such bands as white house and throbbing gristle ect. Industrial music is a style of experimental music that draws on transgressive and provocative themes. Skinny puppy, Velvet Acid Christ, Ministry, Nine Inch nails (esp. Skinny Puppy and V.A.C.), and Kraftwerk as well as the velvet underground did a great job in adding to and updating Industrial music. Todays industrial however is a bit different and more pyrotechnics and club based (as is most of todays music including goth). Music always evolves and changes; it is unreal how many genres of music there are now. Goth and industrial both have several genres each as do all types of music. The scenes and communities themselves also change and evolve as everything does and there are several different types of Goths as well as punks and alternative people. This is also the same with religion just like politics. I have only known of the goth community since mid 1990's but have always been a goth as I believe it is more than just about the music. Most people believe goth music came before industrial but it actually came before goth music. Gothic music is generally dark, obscure, and melancholy; it is sometimes angst and in your face or can be personal but it is always anti-mainstream and unique Generally it is rock or metal but lately it has evolved to be more electronic and club based. Industrial is mostly upbeat, mechanical, and electronic but can also be metal or hard rock. Goth and industrial is often interwoven as in the community. Some members however stick to one of the genres but I prefer both; most Goths like several different types of music as the community is not just about music however I only like Goth and industrial with some exceptions such as 80s music but generally like all my music dark.

Rev. JP Vanir

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Art_of_Noises

~ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Industrial_music

Lonely world (Disconnected) January 14, 2013

Its a lonely world when you disconnected from everything...

All you see around you is memories of nothingness...

Its a dying world and I keep returning to it...

You never want to remember there is nothing in this place for you...

< Its a lonely world When your disconnected from everyone & everything...

When it all dies, everything lies, and it all eventually goes away...

Its a lonely world when you disconnected from everything...

Even in a crowd of people, even in the streets of the the city, even in a busy club I fell disconnected from everyone like I never belong In the world...

Cause its a lonely world when you don't belong here its a lonely everywhere when your this disconnected from everything and everyone...

Everyday and every night I wonder why I am here...

All this time I wonder why I keep returning...

When Its a lonely world when you disconnected from everything...

© Vampyrian JP Vanir

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The dilemma of being a Vegetarian and the sin of waste and Vampyrian Ethics July 24, 2012

The dilemma of being a Vegetarian and the sin of waste?

I consider myself a vegetarian as I choose not to eat meat of buys slaughters meat, fur, or leather for personal beliefs. However I am also a severe diabetic and my blood sugars are not under the best control so my Dr. wants to make sure I eat right so he subscribed me meals on wheels. The problem with this is they do not offer vegetarian meals and I am given meat on a daily basis; I could offer those meals to someone who is not as strict a vegetarian as me but I am supposed to eat the meal to keep my blood sugar levels under control and I do not have many people I talk to around here. Also waste is a major sin (the first sin) in my person belief system esp something that died in vain and wasting its death is disrespectful.

Also I love respect my mom as she is last relative I have left I have a close relationship with and she often cooks me healthy meals and even lets me take most of the leftovers home since we do not make lot of money. I feel it would be disrespectful to her to refuse to eat her home cooking and I have too big of a heart to hurt her as she is very sensitive. I suppose under certain circumstances such as these since I did not pay for the dead meat and support the death of the animal and wasting its death is worse of a sin in my belief I can make exceptions to my diet? Perhaps the same could be said when one goes to community meals and food pantries?

Vampyrian Ethics and list of major Sin’s

1. You should not WASTE or disregard (food - resources): A Vampyr should not waste what he is given or treat what he is given in a disrespectful manner. He or she should honor what they are given and give appreciation for it...

2. You should not murder with out a legitimate reason (like food): Killing is waste and a crime if not for food or punishment of murder...

3. You should not STEAL from KIN or family (stealing from others should be for necessities): Again stealing is against the law and is a violation of the place in which we reside...

4. You should not HARM KIN, Life Force Givers (Donors), or the innocent with out a legitimate reason: We must be respectful of those around us unless they first harm us...

5. You should not PUSH you beliefs or anything on others: We are all free to believe as we wish...

6. You should not HARM or Destroy nature with out a legitimate reason or the natural balance of life: We must respect the World we live in and respect the natural resources we are given...

***I am not recommending that we break the human laws as that would bring our community down and that is for the area in which you live legal system to do. We must respect this world in which we reside...

© Rev. J P Vanir

Myths to reality: Out of the Shadows into the Light? January 7, 2014

Myths to reality: Out of the Shadows into the Light?

Thanks mostly to the almost lost (no comment) movie Nosferatu Vampires have been seen as creatures which cannot survive in daylight and will be destroyed by the rays of sunlight. In many movies it is seen as light is good (pure) and dark is bad (evil) so light destroys darkness and those who dwell in it. It could also be said that it is thought sunlight kills vampires is because they are said to be the undead kept alive by fresh blood and sunlight increases the rate of decay on human flesh. But that is a much more detailed discussion perhaps. Ever since Nosferatu movies and shows have insisted Sunlight must kill vampire but not reanimated corpses (people call them Zombies whether they are or not really)? The original Dracula in the book was not killed by sunlight but that changed when they made Nosferatu (Which comes from the Greek word nosophoros - which means "plague-carrier" Not Vampire)

1. Supernatural Vampyre (Spirits, Gods, ect.)

Now lets compare that to the original Mythology in which they are active at night but they were not generally considered vulnerable to sunlight. It has also been said and I agree that Vampyres are nocturnal creatures and it is easier for them to hunt humans for blood at night when most are tired, it is harder for them to be seen, and they often feed on humans as they sleep to not be noticed as easily. They are said to be stronger or more powerful at night. I believe Vampyres are not natural creatures but supernatural but very much living creatures. As sunlight makes most humans, other animals, and plants wake up and have more energy during the day (energizes the natural world ect) it depletes the Vampyre Spirits energy slightly as they are not from the natural world but another plane of existence (the shadow realms) originally which is in the shadows/darkness and bothers there eyes...

2. The Vampyres in Human form

Most spirits (not Ghosts) from other realms can only exist in the natural world usually for a certain period of time (depending on there strength from feeding) unless they take over a body (possession) which is how a Vampyre human comes to be; a Vampyre Spirit enters a human unborn child before they are alive (through either reincarnation, misplacement, an astral sexual encounter ect) instead of a human soul (other kin). These humans grow up normal however they may awaken to recognize they are a Vampyre (awakening) but most often can not believe in such a thing and just think the have human issues. Most of the "Vampire community" also believes there Vampyrism is a human condition but this is my theory as well as many other Vampyres in the world. As we have a Vampyre Spirit piloting the Human vessel instead of a human soul we are controlled by the Vampyres need for more fuel as it is a stronger entity in a human body so they need to to eat food as well as fuel the Vampyre.

Being a Human Vampyrism it is more difficult to feed but often if they cannot be get food from a willing donor they well feed while they are asleep (astral) or the Vampyre will take left over energy when humans have more than they need or by letting it go though a glance, giving them attention, or a touch (The Vampyres natural allure could help here). However vampyres can often barely stay healthy that way depending on there environment so they may feed on themselves out of habit and may get sick. The human Vampyre often may drawn to the night and have issues with sunlight but very rarely will it be a major issue depending on how often they feed. It is not so easy getting a willing donation of Blood or a small bit of life force though most other energy sources may work almost as well.

3. Human Vampyre in the community

Vampyres are not permitted to feed on an unwilling donor not to mention jail is never a good choice if they know better and have integrity but most in the Vampyre Community do; if they drain an unwilling victim (which is very rare) they are black listed from the V.C. - So unlike in the supernatural Vampyres the Human Vampyre is nothing to be worried about and normally a rather very pleasant person (depending on moods and situations of course lol). Not all Vampyres are big on community but a lot have come out of the coffin (kidding) thanks to the internet but many of us are worried this may cause harm to our kin or ourselves so even more like to keep quiet about what we are for it is very likely they will be unfairly judged for something we can't help being born this way...

© Rev. JP Vampyrian

GODS and such FEEDING ON HUMANS Posted on on Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Fiction often has some facts in there some where. I remember when Buffy the Vampire Slayer was a popular series. It was of course mostly fake like all fiction; however there where a few things that have truth in it. One of my favorites was the season 5 as Glory: who is a Goddess in a human body and because of this she must feed on humans brains psychically. After she does this they go crazy. I believe this to be true and luckily there most known Vampyres would never attempt this because we are not as powerful as she was or as selfish and egotistical. That however is why I do not worship any Gods or Goddesses; when you do this the energy contained in your worship and adoration feeds them. I have written about this earlier and am sure I am not the first to come to this conclusion but it amazes me that that was brought up in the show...

© Vampyrian Rev. J P Vanir

Father or Mother: The real definition Posted on Friday, March 16, 2012

I have had it with the Vampire community’s use of the word Father or Mother to mean Fangsmith or dentist! I am sorry but a father - mother is a term given as respect to a person who is ordained as a Spiritual leader and/or one who has a Fatherly or Motherly mentality about them. Anyone can teach themselves to make fangs and I as well as my wife have done our own fangs when I wore them in the past (I still have the equipment). I do not consider myself a father because of that and neither does she use Mother because of that. We are both Spiritual leaders in the TempleUVUP and I have been ordained since July 4th of 2002; she also is ordained. I am a Theologian and have studied Spirituality for over a decade and performed several legal weddings in Ohio. I am sorry but I cannot refer to a fang smith (especially one who doesn’t even have a degree for dentistry) as a Father or Mother when that term has nothing to do with Teeth or making fake fangs.

© Vampyrian Rev. J P Vanir

TRANCE DANCE, Possession, and Why we must take energy: Posted on Friday, March 9, 2012

TRANCE DANCE , Energy, and Possession:

Music is a most powerful energy magnet and when it is being played it can evoke your spiritual essence given to all of us by the Gods and Spirits of the Spiritual Realm. If you are Human or do not know how to use this (control it) if can be used against you or can be used for you; depending on how you chose it to be used. The Gods can use this to put you in TRANCE and possess you or you can go into TRANCE entering the Spiritual Realm and you can see things to help you as well as guide you in you spiritual awakening. For many humans (as well as unaware Vampyres/Other Kin) the Gods and other Vampric Spirits use this to put there followers as others into TRANCE causing them to dance and use up large amounts of energy so they can feed from them. Humans can make very good energy sources as well as are very easily susceptible to control and manipulation by higher Spiritual entities if they allow it. Vampyres however can use music invoke energy and take it from those around them and reach a Spiritual TRANCE state to further awaken them in there Spiritual Awakening as well as evoke there Spirit guides...

Why we must take energy from others:

We are at a higher energy frequency than most we must take energy from others since we are Spiritual entities (Other Kin) in a human body (like possession but the Sprit goes into a human baby instead of a Human soul) and we are not from this realm. We have a hard time not taking from our human host which may cause us to become sick as well as possible break down our vital organs (heart, pancreas, lungs, liver, and such) if we do not take from others. I as well as others I have know have had there organs fail or die with out explanation so they assumed it was some unknown virus or something. Since we are both Vampyr as well as human we need food for the human body as well as Living Energy for the Vampyr...

© Vampyrian Rev. J P Vanir

What is this Vampyrian Spirituality? Posted on Monday, February 27, 2012

I consider myself as Vampyrian. I want the community to be united in its knowledge of what Vampyrism is and what we are capable of as Vampyr and Human; I also believe Vampyres are spiritual beings and this is my spirituality as well as what I am. I believe in many deities as well as Satanism, Luciferianism, Paganism, Christian, Eastern Spirituality, Judaism, Egyptian Spirituality, and Spiritual Humanism BUT most importantly I am my own God as we all are as Vampyres. I believe in Vampyrism as a part of my life as well as my spirituality and what makes Vampyrism a Spiritual condition is that though we are humans we have a Vampyr Spirit or Soul so we are both Human as well as Demi-God. I believe Layla is my dark mother; my personal belief is that Vampyrism is a product of her as well as the Fallen Angels, Demons, or Gods who decided to come to this realm mated with human females who bore Vampyr children.

The Vampyrian TempleUVUP is a United Vampyrian Universal (eclectic) Pagan Temple in Ohio founded Dec. 18, 2003; though we have members from all over. Our belief is all religions have there basis in truth as well as not and by trying to understand each other we may come closer to the real truth. The Pentagram is a nature symbol in the Pagan Spirituality; it represents mankind as well in other faiths and the inverted Pentagram most likely represents Otherkin (Vampyres) such as us; this is MY (Founding Rev. J P Vanir's) personal belief...

The Vampyrian belief is eclectic but different than most since we do not worship anything above us. We believe most religions are based in there understandings of truth and are not complete lies just what people understand. Most Religions make people feel good that someone may be up there taking care of them if anything goes wrong they need not fear because someone up there will make it OK. That is good for most to keep them from worrying over small things since most people trend to do that. However it takes away your personal power which you can develop on your own especially if you are other kin (like Vampyres, fea, and such). Humans can develop there own divinity through Mind exercises that other kin already posses naturally. Our spirituality is based in Vampyrism and that we have very Spiritual souls as Vampyres. The Vampyrian beliefs are best explained on the TempleUVUP site.

© Vampyrian Rev. J P Vanir Of TempleUVUP

We are the predators of humans & it is not always a bad thing Posted on Friday, February 24, 2012

I believe that the food chain is set up as predator and prey; some how it the definitions got changed and that screwed everything up similar to the way fiction and Hollywood screwed up our name "Vampire". Not all Predators kill there Prey but they take just what they need to survive such as mosquitoes, tapeworms, and even bats ect. It is funny because we don’t want to be compared to Vampire bats or parasites such as these but that is one similarity many of us have. The difference however is most do not take too much or enough to hurt those we take from and it is usually given freely or should be. So even though we do not kill our Prey (well most of us with morals anyways) the humans are our prey.

© Vampyrian Rev. J P Vanir

Vampyric Healing Posted on Friday, February 24, 2012

Despite the popular belief in the community Emotional Vampyrism is still something real Vampyres do to feed but is not always negative or a bad method of feeding. Unfortunately there are those who take too much hurting those they feed from as well as those who kill those they feed from but most Vampyres have morals and would never think of such things but just like the serial killer humans we have bad elements as well. Emotional Vampyrism is still a form of Vampyrism. There are many of us who feed on depression, pain, anger, negativity, and anxiety which can be for some a much needed form of Emotional Vampyrism for healing. There are many who have much more energy than they can tolerate and it affects them greatly. We as Vampyres can be and I believe are meant to be healers too many esp certain Otherkin who have up to 10 times as much energy (anxiety) as a normal person. As long as we know how to ground properly and convert it this works out well for both of us.

© Vampyrian Father J P Vanir

Vampyrian Creation Theory Posted on Saturday, February 18, 2012

The beginning of Mankind and the physical Realm:

Albert Einstein once said that energy can nether be created nor destroyed which is what ones Soul or Spirit is: The purest type of living energy and that is why I firmly believe in reincarnation. So were did we come from then? The ancient Gods and Spirits never were created but always were. Many of these Gods and Spirits are Vampyric. They place in which they reside only has so much for them to feed on so they decided to gather together and created a physical realm full of living creatures that could go forth and multiply creating more living creatures for the gods to feed on. Back in the old days the Gods could equally share the food without disrupting the peace of the physical world. However, eventually the Humans found out about the gods. They then chose and even created particular Gods to worship and give particular attention and energy to. This made many of the Gods Jealous and one Particular God even made it a Sin to place other Gods above him and forbid his “followers” to worship, believe in, or even recognize any other Gods. This was the beginning of “Religion” and the death of pure innocent Spirituality. We are Spiritual Creatures and should never subscribe to such nonsense...

The Beginning of Vampyres and Other Kin:

One day after watching there Human Creations some of the Gods decided to possess there creations and even reproduce with them and the humans would then give birth to hybrid human/Vampyr children. The Gods also have the ability to be seen in the Physical Realm and if they posses the human as an infant still in the womb a Human Vampyr hybrid is born. One of the Gods experimented with one of his first human creations Layla and made her like himself (part God) however she did not want to submit to her given husband nor submit to the God that created her. What do you expect from a woman made as a god and giving a god like ego. She was a higher being than her given husband even though they were made equally from the dirt she was given a Vampyric God like Spirt and he demanded that she submit to him and treated her as a dog! She tried to be reasonable but the God that created her told her to submit as a woman should; she was furious! She then left the garden decided to have relationships with the other Gods and Spirits that visited the physical realm to mate with other humans giving birth to more powerful Vampyric succubus children.

© Vampyrian Rev. JP Vanir Of TempleUVUP

Possibility of Vampyr Changelings & Vampyric Fae: Posted Tuesday, January 10, 2012

The Possibility of Vampyr Changelings & Vampyric Fae:

We as Vampyres as well as the rest of the other Other Kin being Other Kin Spirits in a human body are technically Changelings. Before recently this thought never crossed my mind until I researched Changelings. Most are seen as Fae or other such creatures (being more commonly known) but technically all Other Kin are other worldly spirits in a human body so we all fit the changeling mold. I believe however as Vampyres we posses the human body but still the human soul is still in there but it is controlled by the Vampyr spirit which is essentially what the human Vampyr is – a Vampyr Spirit that controls a human host. After researching more I have come to find that succubus have been referred as a type of Fae though I have always considered them a type of Psychic Vampyr as they feed on human sexual energy but then I also came across theories that many Fae actually feed on humans so does that make them Vampyric Fae?

© Vampyrian Rev. J P Vanir

About Predatory Vampyrism and other occasions Posted on Thursday, July 7, 2011

About Predatory Vampyrism and other occasions

I have been shot down on several occasions because of my predatory Vampyrism beliefs however if you hunt for your food you are a predator; so it is not always an evil to be a predator. Whether you kill what you hunt or just go out to gather energy it is predatory. I have also been accused of being overly egotistical as a Vampyre because of my belief that we are above humans on the food chain because we feed on them. However I do not think we are top of the food chain as there is not top of the food chain; something always feeds on something else. I know there are creatures above us especially since we are still also human higher spirits (even the pure Vampyr Spirits) could easily feed on us. At least I and most in the community DO NOT kill and completely devour or prey! We only use what we need and they usually do not not notice as I am not one to hurt anyone.

© Rev. JP Vanir

(Past Posts) Healing Ritual: Posted on Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Healing Ritual:

Please take a moment to first ground and expel any stresses of the day (wait two minutes)...

Energy from the North, South, East, and West hear my call...

Energy from the Earth, rise!

Energy from the element of Fire, rise!

Energy of the Winds, rise!

Energy from the element of Water, rise!

Energy of the Spirit, rise!

Send healing from the Spiritual Realm to ______­

Send healing from below...

Send healing energy to all those in need as healing energy flows...

Let it radiate through them and grow to a vibration

Forcing the pain to cease and as the energy grows...

Let us all now raise our projective giving hands...

Visualize healing pure energy flowing out of them...

Visualize it surrounding ______ and growing bright (Blue or white) as all our energy is around him...

Growing bright now surrounded with bright warm healing energy...

As the ritual comes to an end let us all light out (blue or white) candles and let them burn until they put themselves out… Blessings to all who attended and healing blessing to those who need healing...

© Lady Aromaura and Founding Father J P Vanir

About secretive groups and cult activity Posted on Thursday, April 21, 2011

About secretive groups and cult activity Thursday, April 21, 2011

Unfortunately there are several "Vampire" sites that will not let you see there site unless you first join the site and give them another number to be counted. They keep there information and knowledge hidden from the rest of the world and remain secretive. I understand protecting your members but that is usually considered CULT activity (as occult means secret and is the basis for the word cult) though some of theses group want to call me a cult leader I would NEVER do that as I believe the world has a tight to know and learn so they may understand and figure out if they are a kindred spirit...

Old Man - no one understands February 27, 2013

Next stop for the old man is the shopping mall to get a paper bag to put over my head and the pet section to get a muzzle to put over my mouth. Then again I do have the mask but you can still pretty much still understand what I say. Oh well fuck this world and whats that saying again? Oh yeah you leave the world just how you came into it ALONE...

I am just an Old Man - no one understands...

JP Vanir

Musicians are ARTISTS of Sound October 19, 2013

What I don't understand is how people assume a Band, musician, or even a DJ MUST make sounds (music) for others? Music and creating sounds is or at least can be (depending on the type and such) an ART FORM and real artists are are passionate and make art according to there emotions and lifestyle. They are not supposed to make it how they are told or expected to; that is more of abusiness men and a sell out.